venting

okay is like this. I'm a young pretty girl who has a good head on her shoulder. so why not want sum body who is the same way.i understand that his feelings are hurt but at the end of the day if I'm not happy then what we have is in vain, that just how i am. I know Wat you think i shouldn't jugs jump into something that I'm not sure of the future on. but that's all bull. if we all knew the damn future on everything then everyone life would not be a bunch of bull. now correct me if I'm wrong but isn't life all about taken chances and doing stuff that you want to do. and i felt like give him a chance. yeah he was a nice guy, and always had me laugh in. but i mean dang. oh dude was childish and always acting lame.if you know me you kno that i dont like no lame niggas. i mean really. and on top of all that. oh this gone have you like wattttttttt. this lame ass nigga gone talk about me to my ex. awwww hell naw. now check this out. me and my ex are real close, we talk to each other about anything and we always got each otha back, so yeah i kno he would not lie to me. we always kept it real. yeah i kno wat you think if yall so close why yall not together , but there are alot of things that kums with a relationship such as ours. a whole lot. but thats for another blog. anyway. this guy told my ex that he aint know how mi ex went out with me. im mean like oh really. it's funny kuz imi ex really is that kind of guy that dont like anybody talkin bout the people he love. and yes he loves me duh we were togetha for like a year. lol any way mi ex set that nigga stright. point blank dont talk about mookie like that. i kno the onli reason he did that is beacause he want me back. so I say. but at the end this niggha kalled and i jus point blank said mookie dont want you no more so you kan step like a DIAMOND DOG.... lol anyway i jus want ed to write this blog jus to get it off my chest peace. LOVE AND WAR. baby

sept.*15*2018(iTZ tHAT fUQ nIGGA FALT)(RequEsted By Mi SIS KAY-KAY)

Current mood: breezy

Category: Writing and Poetry

LOve LOL. I think i got an idea of what that is. Being a mother and a wife. Yeah I Got Much Love.Loveing your child oh thats the ezist thing i eva did. Oh but loveing a man. UGH. Now thats hard work. Yeah you might think it esey, But if he dont LOVE you back then. um you scrude. Trust me I kno.

I treated him like he waz a king. Neva cheated, hell i neva even said another guy waz cute.I thought he LOVED me. I kno I LOVED him.Well thats untill the day he broke my heart Date sept 15,2008. Kno how?? This FUq Nigga had a wife and two otha kids by ha. Ohh you thought I waz married to this Man, me too.Um that nigga married me pretend.I had no idea.Fake pastor and all. Mi gurls were even in on it.(FUq bitches.).That's how he got me all tied up. tellin me that we were married and havein a baby by me. crazi how guys kan be so Fuqed Up.WEll bak to tha story. I found out about this by tha other women. I guess she got feed up with him. Kuz she kalled me and told me"Hello mi name is kay and i just want you to know i am married to john. you might think that yall married to him but, all that waz just azz fake azz mi weav." When i heard this kay women say thoes words mi heart fell to mi stomach. I drop the fone instanlly. I cant beleive tha man that i loved did this to me. I ran to mi room and took all mi clothes and all mi childs clothes, Got mi child and left that house. Drove away and never looked Back. Kalled mi brother and had a long CONVO with him.

That waz 10years ago. After i left that fool john. I went to live with mi mom and dad in hollywood. Yeah Thats right hollywood. Mi parents are famos actors.So you kno they got doe.Anyway after a while of living with mi peeps I got a job working for tha best entertainer in mi day Miss. Beyonce Knowls. While working for beyonce I meet a guy name Tom. After dating tom for a year I realized i waz ready to marry him. Me and tom got married on sept 15,2010. funny how on that very date i fell out and married LOVE. iquit working foe "B". Hell tom said he wanted to take care of me and he did in deed.Oh how i miss mi love tom. Tom died 2years ago from cancer. But little did i kno tom left me millions and millions of dollars. and he owned a oil company that he left to me. Gosh that man is wonderful. Of course you kno it waz on all tha news channles. CNN all that. So guess who showed up to mi door step 2 moths after his death?? yeah you guessed right Mr.Fuq nigga. Talkin bout i heard about your husband and i am sorry to hear that.MayBee i can make you feel betta. Um that brought back so many memories. So ya know what i did?? I let him come in. Told him that i needed some comfort. So he did. saduced him and made love to em. still good huh?? Feel right to sleep like he use to do. guess what i did what i did while he waz sleep?? somthing i been dreamin bout since tha day i left em. Remember when i told you i had a long CONVO mi brother?? Yeah well he waz telling me how i should wait tell that FUq niGGA come home and wait tell he go to sleep. put gasoline oll ova his FUq nigga ASS and light his ass up. But i chose not to take that road THEN. So guess what!?? That waz Then ANd this waz NOW.I tied his legs and arms to that damn bed so fast. Of course he woke and asked wat i waz doin. I told its okay babe im tryin smething. FUq Nigga fell foe it. LOL made love to em again. he fell asleep again. got mi shid togetha and i lighted a Newport up wit mi bic liter. Got mi matches lite them up and blow his ass up and walk out that house lookin like a thug. watch that house burn down like a pile of leaves. lol. finshed mi Newport.threw down tha lighter and got in mi limo. Um....HUm.REVENGE BITCH

Tha fuqed up part about it. that FUq Nigga. waz missin foe 2 damn years. 2 na.That chick kay knew wat happend to his ass. Hell she took all his money and tha kids blow that house up foe moe money but hell that dubm chick aint did it right she aint get rid of tha gas tank. that shid waz out side of that house. as for john. They found sum of hiz body particles. tha matches. and the liter. Not to mention that Fuq Nigga limo driver told on me. Um....hum so now im sitting her in jail think bout what i did. guess who mi cell mate is. lol that damn kay. she asked me do I regret anything. Ugh hell naw. BLOWIN HIZ ASS UP WAZ WORTH IT.

BUT I WILL GIVE YOU ADVICE NEVA LOVE A FUQ NIGGA. IF YOU DO. KUM SEE ME IN THA PIN. I FOUND OUT HOW TO DESPOSE A BODY REAL QUICK AND GOOD.lmao. oH GUESS WAT TO DAY IS SEPT.15,2018. STILL KICKIN.

FUCK A FUQ NIGGA

This IS DedaKATED tO mI SIS kaY-kaY.lOVE YA WIT ALL MI HEART. yOU ARE ONE OF THE REASONS I WRITE. YOUR IDEAS KEEP MI MIND FLOWING. LOVE YA SIS. tHANK YO

wat does it mean???????



Current mood: creative


Category: Writing and Poetry


but everything im not makes me everything i am


-KANYE WEST

  that statement gets me thinkin. wat did he mean by that.yeah he waz talkin about alot of things in the song but damn. That one lil line is a good topic to talk about. when i thinking about what that line mean i think about life.I am alive so that really makes me dead. Kuz everthing im not makes me everything i am.that tha way i see it. if you dont get it let me explain. being alive and living is tha same thing right?? so it jus tha opposite. I am really dead while i am liveing mi life...............Now correct me if im wrong but that's deep as hell. to be dead while still breathing,that is really cool. so when people ask me am i alive and well, ill jus say"naw im dead and chillin."

  or maybee it means that if i am a child i am really an adult. shoot if thats true then mamma kan stop makin me fix ha sodas kuz i am her child.Lol that all makes sense to me."wat you think??". It all adds up in sum sorta way. yeah i know this sounds wieard but wake up yall!! that wierdst things are wat make the mind think in the most insightful ways.Eva heard of tha sayin."if im wierd then that makes the mind go farther than you and tha one next to you"??i guess not kuz i kam up with that.lol. Im jus tryna get yall to understand.

  im not calm so i really am. so for all the people who call me crazi and wild you betta think twice.Kuz everything im not makes me everything i am. hell im not a superstar.....so really am.....if that statement is so true then wheres mi money.so really my life is in reverse.......I am really the opposite of everything that i stand for.well a couple things.{insider}some things are betta left unsaid and unthought of................mi sis say i am crazi foe think of this but it has to be said. I kant jus keep things all inside that's not healthy for me. Mi mom said that onli a person who is off there rocker would take the time to think of a statement like that. but wat yall fail to understand that i am nothing like you so dont judge me. I know they aint mean nothing by it but at tha end of tha day this is me. and i think in a whole nother way than you. I hear things.i a see thing that people wont even look at. I even have a crazii sence of taste. I think of letters when i taste somthing new....... lol i kno yall like wat that hell

but"EVERYTHING IM NOT MAKES ME EVERYTHING IAM"........................................................................................................................ AN THAT'S REAL.

okay so its 3:09 and im bord in klass. really tired and ready to go home. but i have to stay for newspaper. like WTF. i kant get it in my head why everyone wants to have meetings on every friday. lik who does that. i dont drive and mi mom kuma to pick me up at 6:30. so im here for hours. man i jus might go over one of my friends house and chill kuz this shid is crazii as hell..................ol hold up ill be bak to finish

in a perfect world

perfect-(per fekt) adj. Having no defect of falt; flawless, accurate ; absolute. perfect (per fekt)...................................................................




perfect, perfect, perfect . something that no one is. is that tru?? Yeah it's true that everyone has flaws and falts. smile a little wired , head tilted down. But to me (imperfection is beauty to me.)

My eyes are sadden beacuse i see people who use to be sombody and sombodies who use to be people. HAd to realize that no one is the same. I truely believe that everyone has pain. But not everyone feels the same. I also believe that everyone loves but not everyone knows wat it is and how it feels. There is no book to to tell you how you should feel or love. And there is no person either. People can say they know all about your situation. But cat really tell you how your pose to feel. I think you have to make your own mistake to to learn how your pose to deal and hopw you should feel. After all no one is perfect. or is it that we all are. (imperfection is beauty to me.) I love that i am not perfect. I mean who would want that. I love who i am and embrace everyfalt. HELL(imperfection is beauty to me.)

I guess that's tha way you have to think when you live in a perfect world. OR do I??

SET IT THE FUCK OFF BITCH

this is mi fav movie and i worship GOOD ACTING. omg what would i dO without this movie. this movie makeS me fell good and make me want to make some money on the real though.!!!! i mean this is what people need to see. everybody aint like jon and kate. money just aint givein to us. so hell why not go out and get that money one way or another. im not  sayin go out and rob a bank but hell de sumthin. money make the world go AROUND. if you have never seen this movie, then shame on you. this is one of the best movies by john singelton. oh he is the best movie maker in the whole damn bizz. lol i love tha guy and all his movies.  SO DO ME A FAVOR. IF YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS MOVIE I AM GONE NEED FOR YOU TO GO OUT AND COP IT REAL QICK I MEAN LIKE ASAP. I PROMISE YOU WILL LOVE IT JUS LIKE I DO.

NOW TELL ME THIS AINT A BAD BITCH,THIS IS MY ROLL MODEL. LOVE YA ROBIN"RIHANNA" FENTY>>..

MAN I LOVE THIS LADY. SHE MY FAV SINGER. AND I DON'T KARE WAT PEOPLE GOT TO SAY ABOUT HER. LIKE FOR-REAL EVERYBODY MAKE MISTAKES AND WE LEARN FROM THEM SO LET HER DO HER AND LET LIVE HER LIFE THE WAY IT WAZ MENT TO BE. YO IF YOU HATE ON SUMONE AS MUCH AS THEY HATE ON RIHANNA YOU WILL GET NO WHERE IN LIFE AND THAT'S A FACT. SO PLEASE PEOPLE LET RIHANNA LIVE IN PEACE. AND HOPE OFF HER JOCK. HELL IM PRETTY SURE HER JOCK IS HURTING BY NOW. WIT ALL YALL HATERS BEING ON IT.

MY RENNY-ROO IS EVERYTHING

THIS IS MY BESTFRIEND SERENITY. BUT I KALL HER RENNY-ROO. I LOVE THIS GURL TO DEATH. THIS GURL ALWAYS IS HYPE AND HAS A BIG HEART. SHE IS NOW 5 YEARS OLD AND I AM SO HAPPY SHE STARTED SCHOOL. THIS young lady IS VERY SMART AND KEEP IT REAL. I DON'T THINK OF HER AS JUST MY NEICE. I THINK OF HER AS MI LIL LADY WHO I KNO I WILL HAVE A GOOD TIME WITH EVERYTIME IM WITH HER. SHE IS THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE AND NO ONE KAN REPLACE HER AND THAT'S A FACT. EVERYday I THANK GOD FoR ALOT OF PEOPLE AND SHE IS ONE OF THEM........I KANT WAIT TELL SHE GETS OLDER SO WE KAN HANG OUT AND I KAN TEACH HER HOW TO BE A fuckin LADY

A GURL WHO SITS IN CLASS AND LAUGH'S.
A GURL WHO SPEAKS HER MIND WHEN SHE SEE SOMTHING WRONG.
A GURL WHO WILL MIDDLE FINGER YOU IN A HEART BEAT.
A GURL WHO LOVE'S SOCCER WITH ALL HER HEART.
A GURL LOVES WITH ALL HER HEART BUT SUMTIMES DOES NOT KNOW WHEN TO STOP.
A GURL WHO IS A GURL...............................
HEATED ON AND TALKED ABOUT. BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY. I DIE ALONE.

BOUT ME

ABOUT ME. UMMMMMM. I AM A REAL GURL WHO DOES REAL THINGS. I DONT GET PEOPLE WHO ARE FAKE AND TELL LIES ABOUT STUPID STUFF. I GUESS THAT'S WHAT THEIR MOTHERS TAUGHT THEM. UM....HUM... YA SEE MI MAMMA TAUGHT ME RIGHT. YEAH IT'S TRUE THAT IVE HAVENT ALWAYS DONE WAT MI MAMA. I GUESS THAT WHY I MAKE MY OWN RULES AND DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ANYONE SAYIN NOTH. ,KUZ I DON'T KARE. I MEAN REALL IF I REALLY WENT AROUND THA WORLD DOIN WAT PEOPLE DO THEN I WOULD REALLY BE FUCKED UP TO THE UPMOST.LOL. RULES WERE MENT TO BE BROKEN AND KILLED. AND THAT'S JUS WAT I DON. IF YOU GOT A PROBLEM THEM HOLLA AT ME. LOL

BOOM POW. YOUR ON MI BLOG. BLACK. WHITE. NATIVE AMERICAN. I MEAN REALLY I HAVE IT ALL. BAD TO THE BONE. AND DON'T KARE WAT YOU SAY. blessed TO THE UP MOST. AND GIVES GOD THE GLORY. YEAH THAT'S ME. MOOKIE. THAT GIRL WHO LOVES SOCCER AND LIVE IT. EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS TO ME IS WAT HAPPENS. DON'T REALLY NEED TO CONCERN MI SELF WITH ANYBODY LIFE. BUT I LOVE TO GOSSIP ABOUT THE CELEB............SIKEEEE. LOL. ANY WAY THANK YOU FOE CUMMING TO MI BLOG. ENJOY. I KNOW I WILL.........................